Thursday, June 18, 2015

I No Longer Give a Damn

This space has been pretty quiet lately. To be honest, it’s been quiet since my mini-me was born. There was too much nursing, and now too much toddler-chasing, to do much blogging. And honestly, there hasn’t been much going on that I felt like sharing anyway. We’re good. We’re working, doing daycare drop-off, trying to keep the house from looking like a bomb went off, and working some more. All that to say, today there is something I feel like sharing.

I’ve seen so many articles online lately about how moms should just put on their damn bathing suits and get the in the water with their kids and not care what people think about their bodies. Timely articles with the beginning of summer here and I just so happened to be shopping for my first post-baby bathing suit also. So it’s a topic that’s been on my mind. And here’s what I’ve decided.

My body is what it is and I'm going to be proud of it.

It’s far from perfect, I’d love to lose thirty or forty pounds, and I’ve had comments about my size in the past (from family no less, and when I was much smaller than I am now). But, I’m 31 freaking years old. Isn’t it about time I get over being self-conscious about my body?! It carried a healthy baby to term (finally, on the third try – another reason I’m over feeling uncomfortable in my own skin). It fed her for 14 months. That’s pretty damn amazing.

If that’s not enough to be proud of, it’s time to just get over myself and realize that as she grows, I will be a role model for a tiny girl that I’d like to grow up being confident and happy with herself. How is that going to happen if she hears me constantly talking about how fat I am, or how much weight I need to lose, or how I’m not doing X, Y, or Z because I’m not putting on a bathing suit? Do I want to teach her that you have to have a perfect body or be a size 2 to have fun and enjoy life? Do I want to teach her that what other people think about her body should affect how she feels about herself? Obviously I don’t.

So I’ve decided that I no longer give a damn. My butt and legs are bigger than I’d like them to be. My squishy stomach will most likely always be that way (and bears some tiger stripes that I’m actually damn proud of). My boobs are not where they started. My arms carry some extra meat and it's not lean muscle. And this summer they’re in a bathing suit in the pool with my baby. And this summer they’ll be running and playing on the beach in a bathing suit with my husband and baby. I’m still going to work to lose some extra weight and I’m constantly struggling to get a handle on what and how much I eat, but for now, I’m going to accept that this is the body I’ve got and it is just fine.

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So if you see me and wonder what the hell I think I’m doing, the answer is “I’m having fun with my family and not giving a damn what anyone else thinks”. :) I’m wearing tank tops and shorts (with teal seahorses no less – thanks Old Navy for sucking me in, now I’m 31 going on 6 :) and bathing suits with no cover-up. I’m swimming and playing and enjoying this body that I have, as it is now.

Thursday, March 19, 2015

What I’m Reading: The Fringe Hours

I told you on Tuesday that I've had a little extra time in the evenings to read. Mainly because I found a couple of books that I really liked, so I made time to read before bed, by cutting down on social media time, computer time, etc. For the last week or so, I’ve been devouring The Fringe Hours in my few minutes before turning out the light, and I’ve been sneaking in time in the car when Ryan’s driving, when I’m waiting for appointments, etc.

What I'm Reading: The Fringe Hours

I heard about The Fringe Hours from a lot of the scrapbookers I follow on Instagram. It seemed like all of them had received advanced copies and were blogging or posting about it. I ordered a copy for myself (a paperback instead of an e-book, which means I was pretty sure I was going to love it and might want to keep it to re-read later on) and couldn’t wait to finish my previous book to dig in.

The Fringe Hours

What I'm Reading: The Fringe Hours

The Fringe Hours is all about sneaking in little pockets of time every day (or as often as possible) to do things we enjoy and how important that is for us moms (and women in general). At our house, Ryan does a ton and I mean a TON, but I still feel responsible for keeping everything in line, staying on top of appointments, when things need cleaned, etc. For the first few months of Ellie’s life, I was doing very little of the hobbies that I had previously enjoyed. As I’ve found time to work those back into my life, I have been so much happier and felt more like myself.

Here is where I find some of my Fringe Hours, and how I fill them:

5:00AM on weekdays – Treadmill. Yes, the treadmill is a frenemy of mine, but it feels good to get up and get my sweat on while the house is quiet and everyone is sleeping. When I was getting up at 5am to pump every day, I did some digital scrapbooking on the computer during that time.

Lunch on weekdays – During my hour lunch, I eat at my desk while I read my favorite blogs, browse Pinterest, and do a little digital scrapbooking on my work computer or my laptop that I bring from home. Now that the weather is getting nicer, I will go for a little walk around town in the sunshine and listen to music or podcasts on my phone.

Ellie’s bath time – Daddy usually does bath time if he’s home, so while Ellie’s in the tub I usually clean up the kitchen, move laundry etc., but while I’m doing those chores, I listen to podcasts or music. Those few minutes where I don’t have a baby clinging to me are nice, even if I’m doing housework.

After Ellie’s bed time – These days Ellie’s going to bed around 8:00 - 9:00, so I have an hour or two to do (mostly) as I please. A lot of times I spend it on the couch with Ryan watching one of our favorite shows or catching up on Instagram or Facebook, but sometimes I scrapbook or work on a project, or head to bed early and read.

Bed time – I almost always squeeze in 10 - 15 minutes of reading before turning out the lights, no matter how late it is. It helps my mind wind down for the day and it feels good to take that quiet time for myself.

What I'm Reading: The Fringe Hours

So, how about you? Where do you find free time for yourself? What do you fill that time with?

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

5 Books in 2014

Since Ellie came along, coming on 14 months ago now, my reading has predictably come to a screeching halt. I read a couple of books during my maternity leave, mostly about how to get your damn baby to sleep at night LIKE A NORMAL HUMAN BEING (spoiler alert: they didn’t help at all. She slept when she decided she was ready to sleep. Which, lucky for us, was SO much earlier than a lot of babies).

Then when I went back to work in May I found myself with lots of free time during my work day (at least 20 minutes at a time, 3 times a day ;) where it was easy to read a few pages in a book on my iPad when I was done scrolling Facebook, Instagram, and Pinterest. Luckily, around the end of the year, I was done pumping and Ellie also started going to sleep a little earlier, leaving me with a little more time to read in the evenings.

Below are the few books I was able to read in 2014. On Thursday, I'll be sharing a little bit about the (awesome) book I just finished, which was my third book in 2015. You can also find it in the list in the sidebar on the right.

1. Natural Childbirth The Bradley Way

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2. Secrets of the Baby Whisperer

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3. The Light Between Oceans

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4. How Not to Calm a Child on a Plane

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5. The Good Mother Myth

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Friday, March 13, 2015

Currently - 3/13/15

She still LOVES the baby book.

Currently...

Watching Scandal. That show is so twisty, but I just can't quit it.
Drinking water, water, and more water. And sometimes chai tea lattes. Any chance I get.
Wearing pants that are too big. I'm determined not to buy new clothes before warm weather. It's right around the corner!
Feeling so damn excited about the 70 degree day in our forecast. I feel like we're coming out of the longest winter ever.
Playing with Ellie on the floor in the evenings.
Wanting more time. Always more time.
Needing more sleep. See above.
Hoping to keep up the running I started a couple weeks ago. I tweaked something in my knee Tuesday morning so this morning's run was a brisk walk. Hopefully it clears itself up soon.
Thanking God that we hit the baby jackpot (most of the time). She is such a joy (except when she's not :).
Waiting (not so) patiently for the new laptop I ordered. Evening TV time is about to get more productive (and maybe more bloggy).

Happy Friday friends!

I'm going to put a brick on her head.

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

Ellie's First Birthday Party

We hosted a very small group of our closest family to celebrate our little bitty girl's birthday at the beginning of February. We held the party in our garage, but it turned out really nice and she seemed to enjoy it, so this mama was happy. Ryan spent a lot of time cleaning up the garage and I did the decorating.

Ellie's First Birthday

Ryan spray painted these letters with gold glitter (he was thrilled) and I spent entirely too long making the tassel garland. But they’re cute! I set out my two Project Life albums for 2014 which show almost Ellie’s entire first year.

Ellie's First Birthday

Ellie's First Birthday

I had the birthday video I made playing on a loop on our computer in the corner. In the middle of the table is Dr. Seuss’ Happy Birthday book with a note taped to the front to ask all of our guests to write a little note to the birthday girl.

Ellie's First Birthday

We had broccoli cheese soup and a buffet of deli meat, cheeses, a variety of bread and buns, veggie tray, and chips. Of course, we had enough food for about 40 people. :) Ryan spray painted those Ball jars with gold metallic spray paint. I cut the Happy Birthday banner on my Silhouette from gold glitter paper and just taped the streamers to the wall.

Ellie's First Birthday

I baked and iced a smash cake and cupcakes. I bought the gold glittered candle on Etsy. We also had pink M&M’s (yay, February birthday!) and Valentine’s conversation hearts in Ball jars and pink Lofthouse cookies. The gold glitter words on the table were cut on my Silhouette.

Ellie's First Birthday

Ellie's First Birthday

Ellie's First Birthday

After we ate, Ellie opened presents. Nana Cheryl and Papaw Rodney got her that cute Minnie couch. Ryan and I got her that car in the after-Christmas sales. Madison pushed her around the garage and Ellie did not want to get out. I think she liked it. :)

Ellie's First Birthday

After she opened presents, we sang Happy Birthday and gave Ellie her cake. She dove right in (literally…with her face), fed some to Daddy, to me, and to Madison, and then was done and started throwing handfuls on the floor and tried to push the cake off her tray.

Ellie's First Birthday

Ellie's First Birthday

I just cannot believe that our tiny girl is one!

Ellie's First Birthday